Miscarriage, Misfortune, and God's Will

     I've had a pretty good and comfortable life.  I have had nobody near me pass away, I have had no intense sickness, I'm pretty healthy (although If i continue to eat out this much I could scratch the last comment).  Things have always seemed to go "my" way.  I graduated college and had a job less than a month later (very rare).  Anytime Jill and I have been in a pinch financially there has been this money that has came to help us.  I have experienced nothing out of the normal.  

     All of this changed last Monday when Jill and I learned that Jill had a miscarriage.  Monday and Tuesday are probably the worst two days of my life.  I sat in doctors offices, emergency rooms, waiting rooms, hospital cafeterias and all the while knowing my hoped for child was gone.  I don't cry, but I did last week.  I don't remain quiet, but I did last week.  I don't sit and watch, but I did last week.  

     We had hoped for a child, but it is not happening at the moment.  I was reminded of things throughout all of this that were from God and His word, so that I would not waver.  I experienced Him keeping me through a time of suffering.  I was reminded that this is not our fault in any way.  It is another result of a fallen world.  God's perfect world that is not tainted with sin is not full of death but life only!  I was reminded that this situation could be worse.  We could have lost a child.  We didn't lose a child, we just didn't get what we hoped for.  It doesn't make it fine and cheery, but it was important for us to remember that God allowed us to experience only this.  Through all of this I was constantly reminded in my heart and soul that God is sovereign and in control.  I want to give him praise through this situation, and rejoice in Him at all times, including times of suffering and hardship.  He is my treasure, my satisfaction, and my hope.  

     This week at youth I will talk more about this and look forward to sharing in the greatness of God in the midst of hardships of the world.